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“Why another blog?” you might ask… well, I needed some privacy to be honest. If you have stumbled across this blog it won’t be because I have told you about it – This is my blog for me and me alone.

It’s been a pretty tough start to 2010 for me. 2009 was so amazing though and it was always going to be a hard act to follow…  Our landlord told us he was selling the flat, which completely knocked me for six. I cried for days. It resulted in us changing our wedding plans. It wasn’t really a big deal as the wedding was getting out of hand and very expensive. We decided to cut our losses and cancel the ‘big wedding’ and have something a little bit more ‘us’.

I set out to find a cheaper alternative to our original venue. It seemed like it would be a long and trying task, but with a very random recommendation from my Mum, I found my perfect place. I made an appointment to see the place at the weekend and I just fell in love with it. Bob saw it the following weekend and everything was booked and confirmed! The biggest bonus was a friend who plays for a local footy team booked us their clubhouse for £100. Massive WIN!!!

I thought that things were looking up. Just a small blip and all… Not the case tho  We lost £600 cancelling the venue, then we got burgled (and didn’t have insurance, which was totally lame!). We lost about 3k’s worth of stuff and I feel so insecure in my flat. On the up side we have found an awesome new flat near my parents, but our Landlord has insisted we give at least 6 weeks notice, even considering the circumstances. So annoying as he is selling afterall!

The cherry on top came via work… they extended my probation as they are unsure what department my role sits under. *big sigh* If it’s not one thing…

Anyway, I can’t really bring myself to type anymore. I’m feeling *so* down at the moment. I just don’t know what to say Waiting for Bob to come home from his work do… he was supposed to be back at 7 but turns out it’s gone on longer than expected. I knew that phonecall was coming though… Don’t know why I am so upset! I feel really alone right now

As you would’ve seen from my previous post, my gorgeous boyfriend proposed to me and is now my gorgeous fiancé! It’s only *just* starting to sink in as I’m currently trying to arrange our engagement party. It’s pretty much all done now though which is great! We have a venue and the guestlist is out!



So, New Years Resolutions…



Wow – Well for once, I haven’t a clue! I guess this year, my two resolutions would be:



1. To make my job a real success. Since starting my new job in November, I’ve loved the challenge. So I’d really like to make a decent impact in 2010 and grow a community that I can be proud of!



2. My second New Years Resolution, which isn’t much of a resolution as such, but more of an ongoing task/ hope, is to be the best wife I possibly can to Bob when we get married in July. It feels so natural for me to look after him, so fulfilling this shouldn’t be too hard at all.



I have to admit, when 2009 was over, I felt rather sad. It was such an amazing year for me. Meeting my boy, my closest friends, my new job, engagement… There was so much! But 2010 is the year of my wedding and so I intend to make it just as good, if not better than 2009. :up:



Finally, thank you to all of my friends for their love and support in 2009. I met so many amazing people and I just want you to know it doesn’t go unnoticed. Probably the best thing of 2009 was meeting my boy’s family. They are very dear to me and I feel very part of it!



Roll on 2010!!!

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But my biggest news of all… I’M GETTING MARRIED!!! :hat: After years of negative posting and praying for someone to love me as I do them yada yada yada, I found this person in March of this year and 4 weeks ago on the 20th November, he proposed to me 2009 has seriously been the best year of my life! I love my boy so very much :heart: I haven’t been this in love in my life and I knew a very long time ago that he was ‘the one’ :flirt: . I wish there were words for me to describe how I feel…:love:



In the same week as me starting my new job and getting engaged, I was also awarded a Computer Weekly 2009 Blog IT Award for the Best Company/corporate: SMEs – Check it out here – There are a list of other winners also.



So as you can see, I have been rather busy with all that, not to mention Christmas preparations.



I will update you all properly soon, but I did have to tell all of my lovely Opera friends my news… There are a few of you out there who have read my blog for years who will realise *just* how big this is and how much it means to me.



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Time has gone so quickly since my last update. An *amazing* number of things have happened, I don’t know where to start!

Ok, so I’ll start from the first bit of goodness. As many of you know, I wasn’t overly happy at my admin job at the Bank. The people were great, but the work was not very challenging and in the current financial climate the morale was very low amongst the team. For years I have been helping out various web/ tech companies with the communities and also blogging for various people. Everyone knows I am a Twitaholic and addicted to the net in general! For years, my dream job has been to become a Community Manager and build a community (ideally from scratch) and get more involved with social media. Well, with the support of my lovely Bob and various other friends (especially Sarah Blow), I decided to go for it. I went for a couple of interviews and was offered both roles. I decided on the role at an international publishers, working as a Community Manager for estatesgazette.com. I am delighted with my choice and over the past 3 weeks, I have been working with some amazingly motivated and knowledgeable people. I have already learnt a great deal and I have so many ideas, but we won’t go into that now

My second bit of news and by far the biggest and most exciting is… The wonderful boy I met just 8 or so months ago, the love of my life, the most honest and perfect man to walk the earth (in my opinion), proposed to me on the 20th November after the Cozy TweetUp and I said yes (over and over and over again!). So… I’M GETTING MARRIED!!! I just can’t believe it! If you have read any of my previous blogs, you will know this is a great deal for me. I was in a relationship for over 5 years with no commitment and little love (in the end). For years I wanted to find someone who loved me for who I am and not what they could turn me into. I also wanted to find someone whom I could trust impeccably, who would love and care for me as much as I did them. Until a rainy day back in March, I hadn’t found this person. Now I have him and his wonderful family, who I very much consider my own. I will have 2 lovely sister in laws, a very cute nephew and in laws that I love dearly! Not to mention, his son who is just awesome in every way!

My final piece of news is that my website www.girlsngadgets.com won an award at the IT Blogs 09 run by Computer Weekly! You can see pics and a run down of the evening here.

In the space of 9 months, I’ve met the love of my life and future husband, I’ve got my dream job and won an award for my website! I couldn’t be happier.

So it’s only a week until I start my new job! I just cannot wait! It’s going to be so cool to be doing something I have wanted to do for so long. I’m excited and nervous. I really feel like I can make this work, and I am really looking forward to working with the people that I will be working with. They seem like a lovely bunch and I think I’ll be very happy there!



And of course Christmas is nearing and I am starting to get excited about that for the first time ever… Thinking about presents and stuff. Not an easy task. :insane: Must go out and buy cards for people soon. YAY! Feeling totally different! Things are so amazing – I really hope nothing bad happens and that things continue to be so rosy.:heart:



*happy sigh*



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Today I broke it to my Dad that I won’t be home for Christmas. I know he wants me to be there and I knew it was going to be an awkward phonecall, but he took it better than I thought he would and I am really pleased about that. My Dad means the world to me and so I would hate for him to be upset, especially at Christmas, but the truth of the matter is, I am now in an amazing relationship with a boy who just so happens to have a son (Who is also amazing) and I want to spend my Christmas with them. Unfortunately, that means having to go up North and spending it with his family. On the up side, I’ll be spending New Year with my Mum, Dad and Brother which will be nice The first time in about a decade!!!



So tonight I am going to watch the ‘Bunny and the Bull’ which is a film by the director of the Mighty Boosh. The most exciting thing is that the stars from the mighty Boosh are in it also and I just can’t wait. I got very excitable whent he confirmation came through on Wednesday night! I was squealing with glee I’ll update and let you guys know if it’s worth a watch or not



I might go and check out the Blackheath Fireworks on Saturday. They are usually really spectacular and have had a great time in recent years On Sunday we’re going to the pub for a drink and a roast dinner. There’s not much better than a good roast… I can’t wait!



Ciao for now



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The only bad news I have received is that my Uncle jeff has died. That was terrible news. I really admired and looked up to the man. He was such an intelligent and successful person with good morals, a loving wife, two children who loved him and went on to be successful like their mother and father. He will be missed greatly by us all.



So I start my new job on the 16th. I am really pleased as I have worked so hard to get this job. I am most excited and have much planned! Finally I am doing something I want to do!!! I was very fortunate to have been offered both roles i went for. It was a tough decision, but I think I have chosen wisely.



I really feel that I have taken control of my life this year which is a far cry from last year. I am unfortunately being targeted daily by an ex at the moment via Twitter, which I think is just pathetic. He needs to understand that I have moved on and anything that I write or do is not aimed at him. I was over him when it finished (a long time ago)!!! Very odd and at times concerning behaviour! I will not name and shame him though as I find that counter productive.



Anyway… I must continue to plan for my new job and the future in general.



Beijos



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We have sorted things now. None of it was his fault. He’s always been honest with me… ALWAYS. Why I doubted him, who knows? I am ashamed of myself for getting upset and thinking things though.I need to keep telling myself that I’m now in a very loving relationship with someone who wants to be with me always. Believe it or not, that is hard… I am finding it so hard!



One thing’s for sure, I won’t let my boy go, he’s *the* best thing that ever happened to me by a long shot. Without him, I’m not sure where I’d be. Lost probably!



*sigh*



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Not long after the break up, I got together with *the* most amazing person I have ever met – Bob. Totally the opposite to Jon. Bob loves me, cares for me, makes me laugh, supports me… everything! He’s perfection in a person. My life has changed drastically. We moved in together after 4 months and things are going great! We have been together 7 and a half months now and everyday of that time, I have been the happiest girl alive



My confidence is slowly but surely returning thanks to Bob, although it’s only recently I realised how affected I was by my relationship with Jon. I still have a very long way to go. The fact I now have a boy that prepared to go through and see this through with me is amazing and I feel so amazingly lucky!



So other things to update you on other than the love life. I have a tech website aimed at women at http://www.girlsngadgets.com – It’s going well and I have just recently relaunched. Finding time is hard at the moment though as I have so much going on personally. But I am generally happy with how things are going



So there we have it – What about an update on you guys?!



Missed you lots



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Thanks to all of those people that commented and said that I should come back! I am a very happy girl today



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